Humanity.

Things have a way of surprising me... but then yet, I'm not surprised by anything because i always expect... things.

Cue mystery music.

There is one person in this world though who I can never predict and is continuously surprising me. Like when, a few moons ago, he knew my middle name with me telling him maybe once. That seriously shocked me. (I wont forget your middle name again, that's for sure...) And he drove around with me tonight in search of milkshakes and smoothies. And I don't know... he's just... far from normal in a far from bad kind of way. I'm not going to get into this now...

Everyone else I can kinda predict what's going to happen. I know when someone is going to do something asinine and i'm going to get mad and fight with them. I know when clients are going to cancel. I know when customers are going to suck. It's a blessing and a curse.

It's rare for me to have positive things to say about people. I tend to hate everyone. So when I find someone who doesn't piss me off on a regular basis I try to keep them around. It rarely happens. People leave, or people change, or people turn bipolar and want nothing to do with me. BUT THATS OKAY. Because if people didn't leave I wouldn't know how to handle rejection. If people weren't crazy I wouldn't have a job. It's life. I need to stop trying to control people and their actions. Cause it ain't happening...

More often than not I just want to crawl into a hole and not deal with anyone. Now is one of those times. If I could run away and shrink maybe 3 people and take them with me in my pocket, I would. I wouldn't ask for anything else... if I couldnt have that I'd ask for a million dollars, the perfect wardrobe, or a jeep with a self-filling gas tank. I dream big, what can I say.

So yeah... people: bad.

I just can't deal with the bullshit anymore. Maybe it's time to make some changes. And just maybe, that needs to start with me.