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Monday, March 18, 2013

do i have to do everything myself?


Most days anymore, that's what I end up doing.

Sometimes I think if I didn't have people around me I'd try to jump from a building and fly. Not really, but I tend to think I'm a superhero. Superheroes can fly. It's a good excuse to wear a cape.

Not working as much gives me way too much time for self reflection.


Fuck yeah.

Lately I've been big on women rights and us sticking together. So here's another subject that relates-

Equality.

I've never been one of them girls who would not ask a guy out "because I'm a girl". Tradition states that it's the man's job to ask the woman out. But we don't live in the 1900s anymore. We're independent and we're awesome and if we like a guy we should have a right to go up to him and be all "hey i fucking like you, let's date and shit."

Right?!

Yet, I'm also a hypocrite. Cause courage? Courage does not come in liquid form unless you're Harry Potter. And if I knew Harry Potter I'd totally be having him hook me up with Ron and I wouldn't have any sort of guy dilemmas ever again because we would be married and building our own Burrow with a million kids and dogs.

I dream big.


This has always been my mantra and always will be. I will never come down from the clouds and I will never be normal. I need someone who is okay with that and who's willing to fly alongside me, not try to rope me and bring me down to earth. Or maybe, that's exactly what I need. Gravity, stay the hell away from me. Unless you're grounding me to a life better than what I'm flying from.

So what happens when you find it in the form of someone who basically will never suck it up and ask you out, even if he does like you? Do you sit idly by and wait for some other bird to come and swoop him up? Do you say something and look ridiculous if he actually doesn't feel the same way? What's worse? Losing someone you love because they don't love you back in the now, or losing someone you love down the road because you never bothered to ask and someone else did?

Sometimes I'm not so sure.

2 comments:

  1. Hey, Megan!
    You may have just been asking your questions rhetorically, but I want to give my opinion anyway.
    I applaud those who were gifted with the patience of waiting for the boy to ask them out. I am inspired because I could never do that. I have always been the one to initiate the feelings!
    On the other hand...It would drive me crazy if I never discovered the other person's feelings for me, so I deal with my nosi-ness and just ask. In the events that I didn't ask, I found out years and years later, but that's too long of a time for me to wait for my mind to be put at ease.
    Just wanted to share. Hope you figure it out!

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  2. Thank you, megan :) Sometimes it really is better to take that leap of faith. That's on my to-do list when the time presents itself.

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